New week. New month.
Here we are . . . the first Monday in August. That means it’s time for me to . . .
Those . . .
are the words I wrote several days ago.
As I was preparing this blog post.
That was supposed to go up yesterday.
But didn’t.
For many reasons that I won’t go into here, I’ve been having One Of Those Days . . . for a number of days in a row. Y’know . . . those days where nothing feels right and nothing goes quite right and the Not Sleeping and the darkest-of-dark-thoughts seep out of your brain and into your consciousness and the Feeling Sorry For Yourself all . . . pile up.
And then your blog breaks.
So. I’ve decided a quiet interlude is in order while I pick up the pieces again.
Now I’m sitting here . . . in this lovely, quiet corner of the world.
And later on, I’ll be sitting on my dock. Doing nothing except reading and thinking and maybe knitting and . . . starting my own damn engine.
It’s August!
Start Your Engines!
(But . . . this month you’re on your own, I’m afraid.)
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PS . . . Don’t be alarmed. I get this way sometimes. And I’m feeling better now than I was on Sunday. I’ll probably even be back tomorrow . . . because I finished something and I want to show you.
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Edited to add . . . So. I mentioned that my blog broke over the weekend. And it did. Now that it’s fixed, it is, unfortunately, wanting me to approve all of the comments again. So. If your comment does not show up immediately, please know I’ll approve your comments as soon as I see them. (Which might be a minute, because . . . I’m sitting down on the dock and I don’t have wifi there.) Sorry for the hassles . . .
Welp, I will say we all have days (or weeks, or months) like that. I do hope you are feeling much better soon, but understand that we’ve all been there too. You certainly have a lovely place to which you can retreat!! And, just so you know, today it is way too humid to start my engine. I’m going to just let it sit.
The hummingbird and I hope you’re feeling better soon.
Rest, recharge, meditate, and I hope the dark thoughts recede. Looking forward to seeing what you finished!
I feel like there are many of us who had this kind of Monday. I woke up this morning with some glimmers of hope and a plan to start my engine. I will look forward to seeing what you are up to when the time is right.
This might be a repeat comment, but I’ll try leaving it a second time. Rest, recharge, meditate, and I hope the dark thoughts recede. I’m very much looking forward to seeing what you’ve finished!
I think recognizing those feelings and then honoring them by taking care of yourself is the smartest thing you can do. I had BIG overwhelmed feelings last Thursday when some friends and family members called on me for support and I literally felt like I couldn’t stand up straight due to the weight of all of it. Luckily, an emergency phone call with my therapist helped me to process and release. The full moon last week was an epic one and I’m blaming that for everything!
We all need a reset every now and then. Hope your time up north is refreshing. A finished project is always a boost. So is letting go of projects that just don’t do it for you anymore.
My sewing machine had to go in for repairs. I’m using the time it’s away to “marie kondo” my sewing space. It’s been a great way for me to reset this week. Geez, some of my sewing notions date back to jr. high home ec. back in the 60’s (the Dritz sewing gauge with sliding marker, which they still make!) Some things are leaving, but other things are reliable old “friends”. I’m seeing new potential in some of my stash. And some of it will go when I schedule the next Simple Recycling pick up. More than you wanted to know….
Dear Kym, you have given us so much enjoyment and humor and advice and good sense over the years. If you need to take a break, know that we will all be here waiting (more-or-less) patiently for you to return. Fair skies and following winds, my friend.
’tis the season. Looking forward to laughing together before we know it. Virtual hugs to you. (Oh, and a glance down leads me to a p.s.: You may have to approve our comments right now, but today is the first time my name and email were truly saved “for the next time I comment.” That’s nice!)
Things always seem to break when you’re the least mentally capable of dealing with them, don’t they? I think you’re in the perfect place to recharge, so make sure you focus on that. We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back!
Oof. The insomnia just sucks… be gentle with yourself. Sending you so much love and a quietening of those dark thoughts! XOXO
I hope you’re hearing the sound of some loons and feeling a nice breeze. Rest, relax, we’re always here for you. xo
I think we all get there sometimes. I hate the days where during the day it is lovely. Things go well, you have fun, and then…………………..your head hits the pillow and you recall every dang thing you did wrong in your whole life, you remember every not-nice-thing that happened back in jr. high, all the sturm-and-drang cycles through your head until about 2 hours before you need to wake up, you finally fall asleep.
Hope you are on the sunny side of life soon. Dock time sure should help.
Take all the time you need to recharge. You are very wise to take some time to sit on the dock to read and just be. I think we all have these times, I know I do. The bleakness during the day and then the sleepless hours worrying or rehashing every little thing. Enjoy the quiet space of the north woods.
I think when we have those days recharging – as you have been doing – is the best answer! Also lack of sleep tends to make me somewhat morose and a full night’s sleep (anything over 6 hours at this point) renews my optimism. And for what it’s worth turning 70 started me waking up to be grateful for every single day of sheer existence and reasonably good health. So I have fewer “dark” days. Of course, now hurtling towards 80, my thoughts are turning toward end of life issues like wishing I didn’t have so much yarn in my closet that I love too much to get rid of. And why didn’t I start hiking the National Park trails by now. Acceptance. That’s what I – and most of us I expect – need to practice. Acceptance. :). So happy to see that cheerful tea kettle and your favorite corner of the world. Happy dock-sitting! Chloe
Wishing you peace of mind and a smile in a corner of your heart.
oh geez. I feel like August is a hard month even when it all goes well … so sorry yours is off to such a complicated start!
Oh man, I feel you! August has been brutal, so far, on so many fronts!!