Looking for . . .
I’ve been busy this week. And when I get busy – even when it’s busy with fun and pleasurable things (which this week has been mostly filled with), I tend to . . . compartmentalize. It’s my coping strategy, I guess you could say. In order to focus my efforts on whatever it is I need to focus on, I put all the other things . . . aside for awhile. To be dealt with later. Anyway. It’s been a busy time, a busy week.
Yesterday was my birthday.
I quietly (as is my preference) turned 64.
(And, yeah. Tom did sing me that Beatles song.) (Because you sorta have to . . . when you’re 64.)
And, as I am wont to do, I spent some time reflecting. On birthdays. And getting older. And how life just keeps shifting. And what my purpose might be . . . now that I’m 64.
You see, over the last chunk of years, I’ve been struggling to figure out that “purpose” thing for myself. I used to have one. But things changed. I changed. I moved from being a contributing (in a paid-work sense) member of society who had always had “important,” meaningful jobs . . . to someone who is “just at home now.” I moved from being an “active” mom with kids to shepherd and “guide” . . . to becoming a mom of fully-launched and completely independent, grown-up children. I moved from having a mother myself . . . to becoming someone who is responsible for her dad.
It’s been . . . a lot.
But I think I’ve finally gotten through that process, for the most part. I am getting closer to accepting where I am NOW, who I am. It’s been kinda hard, but I’m becoming content with letting that old “striving,” high-wire life I used to live . . . go. I’m finding peace with just . . . letting things unspool in a more relaxed way these days.
So here’s where the hope comes in. At this stage of my life, I hope to more actively embrace joy and peace and contentment . . . where I am. For myself. But also, by extension, for those I encounter.
Life is hard.
There is so much shit going on in the world right now.
I can’t do much to change that or influence anything. But I CAN . . . try to bring some kind of goodness and light into my very small sphere.
I think that’s my purpose now. In a shitty world, I can bring my little light. I can shine it for myself. And maybe it will spill out around me a little bit, too.
That’s my hope, anyway.
Here’s to a good weekend.
See you Monday!
Happy Birthday, Kym! This post… well, it made me a bit teary eyed. And from me to you… you are a very beautiful bit of light and joy… every single day! XO
Happy Birthday, Kym.
Yeah, this next stage of life does take some figuring out.
It is laudable that your aim is to bring hope to the world. Might I add wisdom to that list as well.
You’ve learned a thing or two about a lot of different topics in those 64 years….thanks for sharing that wisdom in your blog posts. And don’t hesitate to spread it around a bit outside the blog-o-sphere.
Here’s to many more!
Happy, Happy Birthday Kym! Agreeing here that you are light and joy all the time. Add in a bit of whimsy at times and lets not forget your capacity for enabling! LOL (My bag to embroider arrived the other day – love it!!) I so appreciate you and all that you share on your blog. Keep it up!
SHINE ON IN A SHITTY WORLD!! What greater purpose could there be?? I think that’s what I shall strive for… new goals. 😉
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KYM!!!
Happy, happy birthday!
You are a shining light and I’m glad to have come into range of your brightness.
Me, I’m still working because I can and because it somehow seems easier than figuring out what to do next. Of course there are lots of layers to that statement but it is a good summary of where I am. I look to you and others who have made the change for models of what to do with all the time (If I will be privileged enough to have that time).
Happy 64th + a day to you, Kym ♥
You DO shine. And we’re all lucky that you share it here.
And you do…
A belated happy birthday to you, Kym! You definitely bring more light to my world, and you inspire me to do it myself. If making this world just a little bit better isn’t a great goal in life, I don’t know what is.
What an inspiring post. I am in sort of the same place as you and I’m getting my head around doing a little bit of ‘good’ every day (for something/someone other than me). I’m also trying to limit the ‘bad’ (being mean/gossipy/complaine-y) in public as well. I hope to make the little corner of my world not as ugly as it might be.
Shine on! ✨. Happy birthday Kym!
64 looks good on you! Wishing you a very happy birthday!
Happy birthday Kym. You do bring so much light and truth into my world and for that I am grateful. Enjoy the days ahead.
I hope you had a very Happy Birthday (that is maybe extending into a birthday weekend)! Purpose is a tough one; my purpose used to be a mother to R&J, but that is mostly done if I’m honest. It sounds like you’ve figured it out pretty well – shine our lights, wherever, whenever, and at whatever wattage we can muster. Thanks for shining yours here.
Happy birthday – and keep shining. Shine on in a shitty world is a great motto!
Wishing you a very Happy Birthday, Kym! I hope you shine on and continue to bring kindness and goodness to the world. Thank you for shining your light in this space.
Happy Birthday Kym. Continue to shine on. As a wise man said, there is peace in every step of the way. Life is indeed a journey and these years can be as rich as earlier ones.
Your light has spilled over into my life in a beautiful and wonderful way and I’m so grateful for our friendship. I hope your birthday was everything you wanted it to be and I hope that the peace and contentment you feel now lasts and lasts. XOXO
Happy birthday, Kym. Your light reaches far and wide and shines strongly out here on the east coast. Thanks for sharing your wisdom and your humor. Your spirit means a lot to me. Shine on!
Happy Birthday, Kym – thank you for all the light you shine on me and for the bright and welcoming space you’ve made here. All the best for your next trip around the sun!!
I am blessed to be part of your shining light and one that has certainly made me brighter. Here’s to shining despite…and doing the best we can. Let’s make this 64th full of smiles and light. XO
Happy birthday Kym! And all the good thoughts that seem to have come with it! Chloe