As December winds down, I usually take a look back at my journals and my planner and my blog posts . . . to review the year-nearly-finished; to remember what happened and how I felt about things. I like taking stock. Reminding myself where I was back in January. Understanding how I got . . . here now, in December.
I find it to be a really nice and settling way to end one year . . . before beginning the next.
If I had to describe my 2023 in one word, it would be . . . stability. While it was a good year for me, personally, it seemed to be a really terrible one for the world, collectively. And, as has been the case for the last few years, that constant contrast remains a tension in my life. It’s hard to say “2023 was a stable year for me” when it was such a terrible year for so many people in the world. But . . . the only year I can analyze and reflect on, really, is my own. And, well . . . 2023 was far better for me than 2022. Which was better than 2021. Which was actually not all that much better than 2020, but there you go.
Anyway. 2023 seemed to be just . . . stable. No big excitements. But no major disappointments, either. I’ll take just a nice, normal year – a year of stability – any time. (Because they’re not always like that.)
As I mentioned yesterday in my one little word wrap-up post, I had a year of . . . allowing space for myself. I did a lot of personal reflection and thinking-things-through. For a while there, my journal was full of entries where I whined about a persistent “funk” I was feeling, and So.Many.Words about “feeling stuck.” But . . . those emotional months led to some personal breakthroughs in understanding and forgiveness and moving forward. This “process” might not have been pretty to watch (or live through, actually), but it has put me in a much better place (space?) to head into a new year.
Some notable things about 2023:
- Our lives are finally looking quite a lot more like they did before the pandemic happened. We went back to the movie theater. We’re going to parties and gatherings regularly again — and we even hosted a much-smaller version of our winter solstice party last week. I run out for “quick errands” without a second thought now. We go to concerts and restaurants and events. This strikes me as good – but a little weird. I thought there would be more lasting changes to the way we live, somehow. And . . . there really haven’t been.
- We lost our power in an ice storm in late February. 56 hours without heat . . . is a lot of time to be without heat! Enough time that I . . . well. I didn’t always behave like a grown-up. But . . . it did get us thinking ahead to the “next” ice storm. We bought a really nice generator and hired an electrician to hard-wire our house to accomodate it, should the need arise. (Which pretty much guarantees we’ll never need a generator. So it goes.)
- After years of discussion and much gnashing of teeth, we finally replaced – and upgraded – our dock up north. (The upgrade is a “deck” that extends off the side of the new dock.) It is so nice and we’re so glad we finally did it. Best of all, we’ve hired the putting-in and the taking-out parts of the dock set-up, and that is worth every penny!
- You know what else we finally did? We installed the cool and very fancy house numbers we bought last year. (They sat in a box for over 12 months. We’re like that sometimes.) It’s nice to finally have house numbers again!
- When it comes to hobbies . . . I knit consistently all year, but not as intensely as in past years. Not as much output, for sure. I spent more time embroidering, and a fair amount of time painting or otherwise dabbling in my “studio.” And I’m fine with that. As far as reading, I signed up for NetGalley and ended up reading several ARC (advanced reader copies) of books this year. I enjoyed doing that, and plan to continue in the future. And I’m thrilled to report that my garden came back to life brilliantly after last year’s devastation (the roof siege and the deer).
- I spent a LOT of time learning about Medicare. So much time. (It is so dang complicated!) Our mailbox was heavy-laden with promotional sales pitches from every possible medicare plan on the planet — for months. (Because Tom turned 65 in December, and then I’ll be following him 3 months later.) We ended up working with a Medicare consultant (a “perk” provided by our financial advisors), so now I’m confident with our choices and all the steps we need(ed) to take to get signed up. (But, truly. This process is ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous.)
- If I had to name one thing that really bugged me about 2023, it would be my regular and recurring bouts of insomnia. At least 2 or 3 times a week, I wake up at 3:00 with “busy brain” about . . . something (The-State-Of-The-World is a frequent middle of the night topic for me; other favorites include The-Pointlessness-Of-My-Life or the running list of Minor-Things-I-Can’t-Control). Always looking for ways to quell the dark, middle of the night brain activity. (So far, solutions elude me.)
So. Nothing really over-the-top exciting in 2023. But nothing devastating either. A fine mix. A good year. Stable. In the best possible ways. (I wouldn’t mind if they all looked like this, y’know?)
Join me tomorrow for my annual Year-in-Review Lightning Round (always a good time).
That sounds like the kind of year I love the best. May 2024 be happy for you.
Stable is excellent. And it’s okay to feel stable in your own world even when the larger world is a dumpster fire. I’ve had that middle of the night insomnia crap for years (since menopause started, really) and it’s Not Fun. I have not found any solution and I have learned to accept it as the-way-it-is-now.
There have been times in my life when I’ve wanted to have an exciting year, but after 2020, well, boring is pretty much welcome any time! And seeing as the world keeps on coming up with new ways to be an utter dumpster fire, I’m always quite content if my personal life on the unexciting side, so I understand quite well how having a stable, relatively “normal” (whatever that is) year is quite satisfactory.
I wish I could help with the insomnia. I have it, too, though for me it’s trouble with falling asleep. The snoring from the other side of the bed is part of it, but it’s also just not being able to get my body to wind down.
There’s nothing wrong with stability! That’s what I most want when things are feeling unstable. I’m sure you’ve tried plenty of things to get back to sleep at 3 am, but loving kindness meditations and progressive muscle relaxation techniques often work for me. The 10% Happier app has a bunch of choices that I use in combination with all the usual things (keep a sleep schedule, no naps, no caffeine after noon, don’t look at the clock, write down what’s concerning you to get it out of your mind, get up and do something boring). I talked to my dr. about it the last time I went, and she offered me medication. I filled the rx, but haven’t taken any so far. Just knowing it’s at hand seems to help, but I still wake up ~3 am once/wk or so and end up getting up to read.
I agree that a stable year is fine. My “exciting” years have never been the kind where I win the lottery, or take a trip around the world …
And Medicare. OMG. I’m more than glad to have it, but what a chore! And why can’t it include dental, vision, and hearing coverage – I mean let’s face it, most people eligible for Medicare regularly use those things, right??
Stability and “normal” have been my goal since 2020 and we seem to have found a happy medium of the life that felt so illusive. My ears perked up at the “dabbling in the studio” line. hint, hint
The best way I’ve found of dealing with a busy brain is to stay away from the news. I don’t listen or see it at all most days or I just glance the headlines and move on. I can’t do anything about any of it (the worldwide stuff) so I keep a safe distance. IKIK I have enough of a busy brain about my own life. Once you find the right plan for Medicare it is a pretty nice deal.
There absolutely will be no power outages! We invested in the big generator too. All set for Medicare 2/1/24…hell yes to the rigmarole! Here’s to stability…it’s better than a lot of other options. (And ugh…I’m experiencing the 3:00 am wake up too… whyyyyyyy!)
Hey there! I do love stability for sure. 3 a.m. Yes, that’s me too. What has helped me some (not always) is golden milk around 9 or 9:30 p.m. (almond milk, a splash of honey or maple syrup, a heavy sprinkling of turmuric and ginger and a sprinkle of cinnamon. Mix it up and warm in the microwave. I also occasionaly use melatonin gummies but have mixed results. Last night I read for half an hour before bed, took a gummie, had my golden milk and was yawning up a storm. I turned out the light and lay there for over an hour! No idea why.
Stability is a good thing.
Medicare is an absolute nightmare and the damn thing is …………you have to research it every year. Things change with the plans …………the drop your pharmacy, the change what drugs you can have, or you MOVE. It is absolutely ridiculous, but I wouldn’t be without it. LOL Thank goodness Steve is mostly good with this kind of stuff. We did make a pretty big blooper with mine this year, but it is just a matter of notifying my doctor of the changes and accepting that some of my meds I will have to get through an online pharmacy. No biggie …. just a minor pain in the shorts.
Stability is good! Sounds like a great year.
Ooof medicare research. Luckily for me, state plan for retirees includes a discounted premium because of somethingsomethingsomething that happened at the University decades ago, and that made it easy. Also, living on the coast in a rural area, there are only a few possible plans to choose from.
I find as we get older we sleep less. One thing I have started doing every night is to drink a night time herbal tea and read. No TV watching or electronics used at least an hour before bed. Life to me is still strange and I don’t think it will ever be quite normal again since 2020. My husband and I have become homebodies and actually enjoy that. Thank you for sharing.
Stability is highly underrated. I’ve probably said before, but for my middle of the night insomnia, I’ve found help with a podcast called “sleep with me”. Which is definitely an acquired taste. It’s a guy with a slightly odd voice telling very boring, meandering stories that never get to the point. It gives my mind something to attach to, but nothing to be interested in. I use a headband/earphone thing made for listening in bed, but when I first started (I’m a side sleeper) I just used one earbud. I’m usually back asleep in 10 or 15 minutes.
I have a theory that our minds attach SOMETHING to the agitation we feel when we wake up in the middle of the night, so giving my mind something to do/not do has been really helpful.
Stability is good, very good in my mind. Medicare is a pain in the fanny but as everyone else says, we are glad to have it. We both have college degrees, as do you and your husband, and it still is complicated and baffling. What happens to those who don’t have access to resources or struggle in other ways?
There are good reminders for me in here, Kym. Busy brain insomnia? Oh, you betcha. And it SUCKS! I have yet to find a solution to this… but I am trying! This has been a very okay year… and that is not a bad thing (although, perhaps it is not a good thing either…)