(A special note about today’s post: My daughter, Erin, has given me permission to share this part of her life with you today, and has given me her stamp of approval for this post.)
If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile, you already know that I have a brilliant and beautiful daughter, Erin. She lives in California with her husband, Keith, and their cat, Dash. She works for Google, where she does software documentation (and so much more that I really don’t understand) for a large engineering team. (Like I said . . . she’s brilliant.) In her “spare” time, she runs and bakes and gardens and plays video games. She is an avid (as in Very Avid) hockey fan. And she builds/paints amazingly detailed Gundam model kits (which is pretty much the plastic equivalent of knitting from difficult lace charts with very fine wool on tiny needles).
What you likely don’t know – and probably would never guess – is that Erin does all this . . . well, basically with her hands tied behind her back. You see, Erin lives with severe anxiety and panic – something she’s been sorting through since her early elementary school years. But sort through it, she has! She’s learned to live alongside her anxiety, rather than fight against it. Which is a huge and very important distinction. In fact, since she was a little girl, Erin has entertained high hopes and dreams for herself. She’s always had lofty goals . . . and despite anything anxiety could throw at her, Erin has achieved Every. Single. One. of her goals. (Rinse. Repeat.)
Erin has always enjoyed the support of her family and her husband as she works through her anxiety and panic issues. She’s worked hard with her therapists, and relies on proper medications to help her feel her best. But the bottom line here? It’s Erin. She’s strong, determined, and resilient, and over the years, she’s developed strategies for dealing with adversity and the inevitable “anxiety fallout” from just . . . living her life right on the edge all the time. Erin prioritizes her mental health by knowing herself and what she needs (assessing how she’s feeling, anticipating triggers, etc.), practicing self care, and setting firm boundaries to protect her peace.
Here’s a recent example for you: Late on the night of the election, when it was becoming ever more clear that, well . . . that things weren’t turning out the way we had hoped, Erin grew very anxious and spent much of that night fighting a major panic attack. Like so many of us, Erin had a rough couple of days. It didn’t take too long, though, before Erin “regrouped” and started moving forward again. Of course, she was not happy about the situation. She was incensed and angry; incredulous, scared. But she was functional. She was focusing on her work and her life again. She was strategizing about how she might be helpful, and she was taking baby steps to make it so.
But you know what she wasn’t doing?
She wasn’t paying attention to the news!
At all.
Although I knew she had “unplugged” the news, I didn’t realize the extent . . . until the big story that Matt Gaetz had withdrawn his nomination for Attorney General broke. Erin and I were texting back and forth at the time, and I told her the “breaking news.” Her reply?
“Sorry I’ve not been following the news. What nomination?”
And.
Ding-ding-ding!
There you have it, my friends.
THAT is protecting your peace.
THAT is setting some serious boundaries.
THAT is prioritizing your mental health.
Which really got me thinking . . . because I SAY I’m “not paying attention to the news.” But, really, I am. At some level. I may not be going as “in depth” with the news as I used to; I may not be reading articles and opinion pieces all the way through anymore. But I am, definitely, paying some attention. Probably too much attention, actually.
I thought I was protecting my peace.
But, really . . . I wasn’t.
I need to reassess.
Here’s how Erin explains it. . .
The mental and emotional cost of keeping up with politics right now is not worth it. I already know what these fuckers are going to do. They told us. That’s why this whole thing is so scary.
But I can’t save democracy single handedly. All I can do is make sure that I keep my own peace. So I’ll put my head down and focus on work. I’ll vote. I’ll donate money to causes that can make widespread differences. I’ll protect my people—my community, my friends, my family—by doing the small things I can to bring joy and peace.
But I don’t have to stay tuned with the latest super villain that trump has nominated. I don’t have to read the news to know things are bad. All I can do is move forward and make things for my people and myself better.
—Erin
I’m sharing Erin’s story with you today for two reasons. First, thinking about and prioritizing our mental health is important all the time, but especially right now when things feel so unsettled and unstable and uncertain. And second, if we’re serious about protecting our peace and prioritizing our mental health, we need to come up with our own plans for doing just that. Like Erin, we need to develop personal strategies that will work for us.
And if you’re feeling like you could benefit from some extra support to cope with the challenges and uncertainties of the world today, please talk to your medical professionals about therapy options, etc.
Set some REAL boundaries.
Protect your peace.
The world is on fire, but that doesn’t mean you have to burn.
– Marenthe
Come.
Fill your cup.
Well done Erin. And well done you for providing a space for her to become this amazing person.
Thank you – and Erin! – for sharing this story and the wise words. Also – gundam? *mind blown*
This… all of this. Thank you, Kym… and especially thank you Erin for sharing this much needed advice! I have tuned entirely out of the news as well… an Erin level tune out. Steve is always asking if I have seen the latest… and I have not. Tuning out from the news has been the single most important factor that has allowed me to move past the election. (and like Erin… though I may be tuned out, it does not mean I am totally deaf, dumb, and blind. I clearly see those in the “danger zone” and I am working to make sure they know I see them and stand with them.)
Erin is an incredible human being. Wow! She’s accomplished so much and has overcome so much, too. Thank you for telling us about your amazing daughter.
I’m kind of like you with the news…I know what’s happening but never, ever hear THAT voice. And Erin… thank-you so much for sharing your story.
Thanks to both you and Erin for sharing your wisdom.
Erin has all my admiration. We need the Erins of this world to show the rest of us how to deal with the difficult, especially the ongoing difficult which can’t be put behind us so we can never just “move on”. Of course, it also helps to have loving and supportive parents, so go you, Kym and Tom!
I’ve tuned out the news, but only in a half-assed way. I need to make a commitment to completely step away from the news, and I thank you and Erin for telling your stories. I used to think that not paying attention to the news made me a poorly-informed citizen but my first duty is to protect my own mental health and that of the people closest to me. If I was going to choose a word for next year (and I’m NOT) it would be boundary.
Thank you both for sharing this. I have been “cutting back” on the news at about “your” level, Kym. I admire the discipline Erin shows in just cutting it all out, and focusing on the good she can do. And her own precious self.
YAY for Erin!!!! I’ve tuned out of the news (like Erin) for years now. I used to think of it as burying my head in the sand…but really I’m just protecting myself. Thank you both (Erin and Kym) for sharing this post.
You will never know the amazing gift you gave me today through this post and Erin’s story. My middle grandchild suffers from pretty intense anxiety. She is making progress but when rears it interrupts the things she enjoys. She is only twelve. She receives therapy and I’m not sure about meds. I pray she has Erin’s strength to internalize strategies so she can let her talent and kind heart shine. This grandma is thankful for the hope and peace Erin’s story has given me.
I have so much admiration for Erin and how well she is taking care of herself, especially because I’m very much like her. I hope you and Tom are patting yourselves on your backs for raising her to be so strong and resilient! Please thank her for allowing you to share her story so that she can be a role model to those of us who are still struggling to completely ignore the news. 😉
I’ve never heard of Gundam models before, either… must be serious because there’s a whole Gundam model TOOL KIT. That’s a little more than a LEGO separator tool. haha.
My “no news” intake is similar to yours, Kym, and even that little bit is toxic. Erin is one smart cookie! Thanks so much to her for allowing you to share her amazing story.
What a remarkable woman! No matter how brave and resilient you are, it takes daily commitment, and Erin embodies that in every way. I bet her parents had a “little” to do with that, she has to get up and do it every day for herself which is the very difficult part. I, too, have stepped away for the most part. I read the headlines on the news to make sure the world is not on fire in my vicinity, but otherwise I have checked out. It’s the first time I ever remember doing that, but it has been really effective in decreasing my anxiety. I have decided not to “borrow trouble”. Thank you and Erin for sharing this with me. It’s inspiring and hopeful.
Thank you for sharing Erin’s story today as a lesson for all of us in setting boundaries and protecting our peace. I don’t watch the news anymore but I do stay informed through print media instead. That works for me and feels less intrusive. I would not be comfortable with a complete boycott, although I can see how it’s the right thing for others. I do struggle with getting Dale to respect my boundaries because, even though I’m aware of things, I don’t want to talk about them, and he does. It’s a source of tension between us right now, unfortunately.
I really, really appreciate hearing Erin’s story. Thank you to you both for sharing!
I am doing very much the same as Erin. No news. Focusing on people and organizations and issues that I care about and taking care of myself and those around me.
Thank you! and Erin! I really needed to read this today. I try to avoid the news and really need to focus on self care for me. I have been caretaker (along with my sister part of the time and my father but he really didn’t understand what was going on) of my mother the last 4 or so years with dementia. She passed on 12/2 and I’ve just been moving through the motions since. I need to work on me and I’ve enjoyed your Cups of Kindness everyday.
Thank you to you and to Erin. Erin is remarkable and so is her Mom. She is so right, we already know what they are going to do. She has a very good plan for moving ahead, doing what she can for herself, loved ones, and her community and giving up the news.